i feel fireworks when i think of you.

well yesterday was...the third of july. which to anyone else who doesnt live here would be like, so? but. we cool hippy people are unique in that we have our fireworks on the...third. it was actually really awesome. went back to my school for the first time in a month, which has felt like alot more than a month, trust me. and saw some people i had {really} missed. i smiled alot, certain things made me so happy. and i absolutely adore that. and the fireworks were sort of amazing. i wish i had taken pictures or a video or something, but even if i had, i think it would have been something that you just have to see for real, because pictures wouldn't do it justice. anyway, it was pretty awesome. then me and two of my friends went to safeway to wait for our rides, and guess what i was labeled? the blondest of the group. how the hell did that happen? i'm almost insulted. one of my friends came home with me to wait for her ride at my house and we were sitting in the kitchen eating cherries, and we needed somewhere to put the pits. so i went and got a bowl, and she was like, its a pit bowl! ...{like pitbull}. it took forever for me to get it, and actually her too. but it was totally perfect. anyway i wish i had more to say, but i don't really. or don't want to put it up here...in case some random stranger stumbles upon my blog. oh and also, i have rediscovered my special talent. i can tie cherry stems in a knot with my tongue. i am so proud, i had totally forgotten about that. you know how people sometimes ask, so what are you like really good at? or something not many people know about you? and now i have something to tell them! i've been able to do it since i was like 8, but anyway. i'm sure no one really cares, but that sort of made me a little happy. among other things.

truth.

alright, well. happy 4th of july. have fun with fireworks. <3

xx

{emma}

i am a poster girl with no poster.

anyway, goodnight. <3
{emma}

There's so many things i wish i had said, but now it's too late.

exeryone who sees this thinks its me, apparently...how does this look at all like me?? i mean im flattered i guess, but she looks nothing like me... oh well. just had to put something here to explain why i put it up here in the first place. so here it is.

so this week has been sort of amazing. i am out of school. finally! but you know what depresses me, because i know its completely twisted? im sort of glad that summer's short. i mean really, what the hells wrong with me? i dont know a single person ever who agrees. i do have a reason though, to see...someone. so. my friends still make fun of me though, no matter how much i try and justify my reasons.
also, i had a freakin fantastic last three days. so. thursday was my last day of school, i had to get through a math final, but orchestra was really...kind of fun. then after school i got five bucks from my pe teacher, then we all went downtown and pretty much just hung out, got food, free cookies, looked at wallets, i bought a tea, which no one else understands why i like tea, got green tea starbucks and smoothies, almost commited the act of trespassing, {haha, arent we such rebels?}, had an interesting time trying to keep earphones in our ears while walking on the highway, and i dunno...it was just awesome. then a few of us had to go play at the senior graduation, which was so loooooooooonnnnggggg. but me and one of my amazingest friends pretty much just talked most of the time so it was still fun. i have a question for anyone who ever reads this and if you have an answer just comment, have you ever heard of throwing tortillas at a graduation? or is that just my weird school? cause i swear to god there were like tortillas flying. everywhere. even some of the teachers were throwing them. i was so confused. and then...i didnt get to say goodbye.

isnt this totally sweet? this is actually my picture, i'm so proud :) i know its kida really cheesy but i found the idea on this website and i had to try it...isnt it kind of awesome?

so i borrowed my mom's phone because mine broke again and i was texting a bit on it and then i got home and...heres the convo...{i'm just going to try this out :) }
mi madre: you havent been texting on my phone right?
me: um. maybe. ?
mm: like how much?
me: um. not too much, like...20 texts. {i even rounded down, it was more like 24.}
mm: you're kidding right?
me: no...not so much.
mm: well my plan doesnt cover texts so youre probably going to have to pay for some of them...
me: k how much?
mm: i think like 2 bucks a text.
me: shit :0
haha yeh i dunno how well that whole dialogo thing really worked but oh well...it was sorta fun! anyway yeah, i am now officially in major debt. oh!!! by the way, i got an ipod!!! i mean i already have one but i had way too much music and i couldnt fit it all on so i got a classic, its pretty cool. its just black, but yeah. im happy :)
so...what else is new? hm... haha ok so i found out i got a C on my math final and a C- on my science final. which sort of depresses me and is also sort of ironic, because i thought i actually did ok. but now im really scared to find out how i did on my social studies because i literally BSed like half of it. my fingers are crossed though...

i love strawberries. so. freakin. much.

another highlight of my week: so we had our last pe class, which is a highlight all in itself, but we were playing ultimate frisbee {dont laugh} and the guys on our team were totally making fun of me and my friends and we were just kind of not caring but my pe teacher gestures me over to her and says emma, you need to tell them to shut the fxxk up, use bigger words!! big words are good!! tell them, i am asking you to!! so i actually did later, but i dont think they heard me. or maybe one of them did he just probably thought he heard wrong...dumbass. anyway that totally made my day.
so...anyway so then yesterday me and two of my friends had another sleepover, i made them come with me to this beatles tribute thing at this vintage clothing store right by my house at night, we showed up and we didnt know anybody so we walked downtown and then came back, said hi, then left and saw a movie. i was pretty sad, actually. and i felt really lame too. but anyway... we saw letter to juliet. it was...good. it was sweet but it was so totally cheesy, oh my god. i was cracking up in all the wrong parts. my friend kept looking over at me and i was laughing so hard i started crying except she thought i was reallycrying, and she was like emma, its not that sad. the guy in it was so akward though. it was totally awesome though, there were like two other people in the whole theater.

anyway, that has been my past few days, i'm in love with summer so far. but i'm also sad.

well...this was a dissapointment. i guess i wasnt really expecting anything, that would have been unreal. but i was wishing. maybe i didnt stay long enough for the wish to come true, who knows. i can dream, right?

anyway, i think thats pretty much it!!

oh by the way, all the pictures are actually mine this time, the picture of the girl is a picture of a picture i got from a really good seller on ebay, so i cant take credit for the actual picture. the picture of the picture though is mine...sorry i'm being so confusing.

bye.

{emma}

ps. i'm in love with this...and i can totally smell the summer<3

Guess what i really like?...yes.

for some unknown reason {not really} i am incredibly happy right now! which is awesome. kind of bizarre though because i have finals in two days...which sucks. but then...summah time!! you have no idea how excited i am. so...a rundown:

musicwise, i am falling back into a led zeppelin/tegan and sara/ janes addiction/breaking benjamin/paramore phase...but i need new music. i literally know all the words to like all the songs i have. any suggestions? :D

i got a led zeppelin shirt!! finally!! and because of today i am officially happier. ...hint...:)

i started a new song today, and i actually really like it, its sort of mellow indieish, i think i'll record it soon, maybe post it one here. i just have to figure out the copyright thing. soon! but i posted some of my songs (finally) on myspace music, i put up a link <-- to the left ;)

um...i have my first voice lesson tomorrow :D i am so excited, and i guess technically i think its going to be a guitar lesson too which is awesome because i really want to learn more on the guitar. i need to learn more or i will keep frustrating myself.

oh, some bad news...so you know how i was going to go see u2 over the summer? well bono had to get emergency surgery so they had to cancel till 2011...which sucks. but. i'm not so extrememly sad because i dont totally love u2, i mean theyre still good but it was more the fray i was going for, and also i still get to see paramore and tegan & sara, so...alls well ;)

but i am in the process of trying to find ani difranco tickets, because she is freakin amazing. not kidding, i think shes like the best guitar player ever, and she's totally sweet live. i really like her music.
and also...i am in love. its true. just had to say...
and...not much else is new i guess. although tomorrow will be awesome because we end all of our classes by lunch and we get our yearbooks, which will be cool but...embarassing. why do they do school pictures in the beginning of the year? everyone changes so much that by the end of the year most everyone hates their school pictures. *ahem*...me. my bangs had just gotten hacked and they are WAY too short, i look like i'm 12. joyjoy, everyone in my entire school can have that lovely picture in their possession for eternity. i will have to show my grandkids. just to show them what a nerd i was :)

anyway, i am going to go study/burn a cd/play guitar/not study so bye for now, enjoy the sun finally after the rain :D

p.s. the pictures remind me so much of summer...love. <3

xoxo

{emma}

Song: Shameless ~ Ani Difranco

If you couldn't be happier right now, do you ever need me?

i dont know how youll react, creating want by holding back, some reverse parallel maniac, let me try, now baby try

i am in indecision. i am stuck in between my fears and my pride and i'm tying myself down. how do i put myself somewhere where he can reach me? if i had a wish, i know what it would be.

anyway, had a fantastic weekend, on thursday i had mucho sugar & some interesting conversations. me and one of my awesomest friends ditched a period, and no one believed us when we came back. spent way too long discussing the meaning of all around the mulberry bush. i am still confused. then spent the next two days with mis amigas, two suprise parties and sleepover. pretty freakin sweet :)

me and maia...i miss you maia!!

the end of thursday {well the end to me} made everything so much better. and made my day. possibly my week.
overall a pretty sweet three days.
and now...sunday.

i brought my window up and down, i turned my back where you'd been, life pull through where you might had been, let me try, let me begin, let me be your heroin, let me sin is your love a sin, let me be your heroin
we have crossed the road to come, the ship will wash up the rudder gone, the rafts are floating but im holding on, let me try now baby let me try

let me be your heroin.

anyway i'm going to go contemplate.
xoxo
{emma}

Well i know what i want and what i want's right here with you.

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so true.

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