It's true, you're electric i can't get over it.

Yesterday, and today. Best. Days. Ever.

Perpetual good mood still perpetual :) Why?
-School is over. Over. OVER!
-This means it's officially summer. And summer is the best time of the year. Ever.
-This also means i'm a junior. Which is kinda half and half, i'm not looking forward to junior year cause i know it's gonna be hard, but still. Junior sounds so much better than sophomore.
-It smells like summer outside. Sweet and warm and lazy and soft and light. One of the best smells ever that cannot possibly replicated because its just so amazing.
-Just something else. :D

I'll keep you posted.
Later.

xx
{emma}

I don't want anybody else, if i can have you for myself.

So. Basically, i have been in a perpetually amazing mood for the past 3 days. It's so amazing to me how one thing, or ok, a few, can get me high on nothing. I love it.
And. I think i'm in love. Honestly. I know how cliche that sounds, but i realized that i couldn't remember when i had ever felt this way because i never had. It's all new. I highly recommend it.

Anyways, the past few days have consisted of an amazing day on thursday, after school and at my final orchestra concert of the year, even though i had to wear a tutu. Even then. Then friday i hung out with one of my best friends who was stranded, and she ended up hanging at my house and sleeping over. Our evening consisted of talking about the same thing for hours and hours and walking to a school nearby to go on the merry go round, and the slide. Sadly the slide was kinda anticlimactic..i got all psyched and climbed up the steps and got ready to zoom down it really fast, but for some reason, the combo of my jeans against slide just didn't happen and so i ended up just kinda scooting down it pathetically. We also played checkers with woodchips and rocks, which made me realize i really need to brush up on that game. Basically, i suck.
Then today {Saturday}, i went to the Maker Faire, which was pretty cool, and hung out with my friend Maia. One thing i love about that fair is all the awesome free stuff they give out. Anyways that was pretty fun :)
And now, i am sitting at home watching the first part of the 7th Harry Potter for the second time in 2 days, which i am completely happy with.

So, i hope to continue with this amazing mood spell..hopefully it'll even get better. I'll keep you posted ;)
Enjoy the weekend. Later.

xx
{emma}

{+} Thursday. Enough said.

You know me.

Your warm whispers, letting me drown in a pool of you
Your warm whispers, keeping the noise from breaking through

So basically, this is what i want to be doing right now. In the sun. During summer.
However, instead i am in my house watching as it pours down rain from clouds that look like they're from a painting of a ship caught in a storm. I'm a little dissapointed. Not to mention the mountain..{literally} of homework just waiting for me. But. I got me some macaroni and cheese so i'm okay :)
Also, i have come to a conclusion. I love the rain, i really do..but not when i'm stuck in it without a hood or umbrella for a half hour in town, with no place to go. Which i was, in fact, after school. It would have all been fine of it hadn't just happened to have been the one day this whole year that i forgot my phone. I'm all for no phones or technology when it's reasonable, but man, sometimes i feel so lost without mine.

Anyways, this weekend was really fun, although mostly uneventful. I did, however, model for a really really awesome photoshoot with my friend maia at our friend taya's shoot. It was pretty awesome, i got to have my hair all done up to look amazing in an Anthropologie/Free People sort of way, and then got to wear a bunch of her clothes, all gorgeous, and some of which she made. I'm sorta jealous of her talent. :) I'm excited to get the pictures and see how they turned out.
And there's 8 more days of school! I am so, so so so excited.

Anyways, enjoy the rain i guess, just stay inside and stay warm, it makes the rain so much better.
later.

xx
{emma}

You look like the afternoon, when you wake at 6 in the morning.

"There's this constant whirlwind of motion and sound all around, and then there's the quiet one, the eye of the storm."

First post of May. It's crazy how time flies, and how unbelievably close we are to summer..freedom. It makes me happy.

So. I despise with a passion the feeling when i know i just did something, or didn't do something, i guess, that i'm going to regret so much. It's one of the worst feelings. That was the second part of my 24 hours yesterday. I was so angry at myself; I'm such a coward sometimes. I know i need to just let myself go, to just take the risk that's so near impossible for me to take, but it's so hard. But i only have nine more days to let go.

On another note; I. am. so. glad. it's. friday. Only 9 more days of school left, i'm so psyched. And I'm sorry for the vagueness..if thats a word. But i needed to vent, to let it out. I promise I'll be better next time, got the whole weekend ahead of me :D Enjoy the sun.

xx
{emma}

Don't forget to breathe.

I can't wait for today.

xx
{emma}

We were almost make believe.

"I really messed up, didn't i?" "Not to my standards."

I probably shouldn't be blogging right now, due to the insane amount of homework that's calling my name, but i am. Procrastination is one of a few honed skills that i excel amazingly at.

So you know what i just figured out? Summer starts in exactly a month. Wooooot! I cannot wait, i need it more than anything right now. And sleep. It's a thing of beauty, sleep is.
Anyways, that knowledge made my day.

So easter was good, there were lots of muffins and chocolate to be had, so i was happy. My entire family, as in, over thirty people populated our house for nearly 12 hours, so that was hectic but cool. Aand, i wasn't allowed to participate in the easter egg hunt. i, instead, being the old one, had to hide the eggs. Someday, i will have my easter egg hunt. One of my best friends told me that when we live together she's gonna hide a bunch of eggs for me to fufil that rite of passage :) So i'm content with that promise in mind.

Also, i got a 12 string guitar! It's so gorgeous, i love it so much. It sounds like three guitars and its a red label so its like forty years old. Which is awesome.
Okay, so this is going to sound reeeaally lame but i keep coming up with little things that make me smile, so i was thinking so i don't forget them i'd put one on every post.
so, here's some silver linings for you. Or me...

+ new music
+ the sound of John Lennon's voice in Twist and Shout
+ friendship bracelets
+ the smell of nice hotel towels
+ accents
+ really good guy singers
+ feathers
+ drinking out of wine glasses...it makes me feel sophisticated haha
+brilliant lyrics
+ accidental amazing pictures
+ stripes
+ that one song that makes you want to dance and dance and dance
+ good days

xx
{emma}

He's waiting in the wings, for you.

Do you feel it too? Its the air we breathe, its intoxicating. Or is it you? You intoxicate me, did you know? Something in the way you move and the way your smile reaches across the distance between us and closes up the spaces. I think we should jump off this edge together, I'll hold your hand.

Finally caught a break. I am so, so happy i have four days, four days {!} off. It's so needed, it's crazy. I've been so burnt out it's like i want to fall asleep and not wake up until i'm retired. I know that sounds depressing, but mainly it's just because i'm in a bit of a rut right now. If that's what it is. I just need lots of sleep, lets say that. Anyways, besides the lack of sleep and the massive amount of homework i had and still have, this week has actually been pretty good.

Some things that make me really happy:

{+} my new favorite album, the new This Century album just came out. I know i sound like the typical boy-band obsessed girl, and i guess i kinda am, but whatever. I love their music.
{+} i found black converse hightops on ebay for cheap and i've been wanting them forever. They might just have to be bought.
{+} i wrote a song yesterday in like ten minutes and i actually really like it. Not that anyone else will necessarily, but ya know.
{+} I'm kinda excited for Easter.
{+} it's sunny. It wasn't supposed to be, but it is. I love it when that happens.
{+} this is going to sound stupid, but i saw a cloud shaped like a squirrel today, and it sort of made me happy. Apparently I'm easily pleased.
{+} i rediscovered one of my favorite songs...how's it gonna be by Third Eye Blind. It makes me wanna cry and smile at the same time. If that doesn't sound too corny.
{+} i think i'm gonna try and fly a kite tomorrow. Just a thought.
{+} little conversations and passing glances and so many smiles. They make my day :) {+} It's break!! woot!
Anyways thats all i got for now, i'm sorry it's a pretty boring post. Have a happy Easter if you celebrate it, if not, have a good Sunday :)
xx

{emma}