Don't forget to breathe.

I can't wait for today.

xx
{emma}

We were almost make believe.

"I really messed up, didn't i?" "Not to my standards."

I probably shouldn't be blogging right now, due to the insane amount of homework that's calling my name, but i am. Procrastination is one of a few honed skills that i excel amazingly at.

So you know what i just figured out? Summer starts in exactly a month. Wooooot! I cannot wait, i need it more than anything right now. And sleep. It's a thing of beauty, sleep is.
Anyways, that knowledge made my day.

So easter was good, there were lots of muffins and chocolate to be had, so i was happy. My entire family, as in, over thirty people populated our house for nearly 12 hours, so that was hectic but cool. Aand, i wasn't allowed to participate in the easter egg hunt. i, instead, being the old one, had to hide the eggs. Someday, i will have my easter egg hunt. One of my best friends told me that when we live together she's gonna hide a bunch of eggs for me to fufil that rite of passage :) So i'm content with that promise in mind.

Also, i got a 12 string guitar! It's so gorgeous, i love it so much. It sounds like three guitars and its a red label so its like forty years old. Which is awesome.
Okay, so this is going to sound reeeaally lame but i keep coming up with little things that make me smile, so i was thinking so i don't forget them i'd put one on every post.
so, here's some silver linings for you. Or me...

+ new music
+ the sound of John Lennon's voice in Twist and Shout
+ friendship bracelets
+ the smell of nice hotel towels
+ accents
+ really good guy singers
+ feathers
+ drinking out of wine glasses...it makes me feel sophisticated haha
+brilliant lyrics
+ accidental amazing pictures
+ stripes
+ that one song that makes you want to dance and dance and dance
+ good days

xx
{emma}

He's waiting in the wings, for you.

Do you feel it too? Its the air we breathe, its intoxicating. Or is it you? You intoxicate me, did you know? Something in the way you move and the way your smile reaches across the distance between us and closes up the spaces. I think we should jump off this edge together, I'll hold your hand.

Finally caught a break. I am so, so happy i have four days, four days {!} off. It's so needed, it's crazy. I've been so burnt out it's like i want to fall asleep and not wake up until i'm retired. I know that sounds depressing, but mainly it's just because i'm in a bit of a rut right now. If that's what it is. I just need lots of sleep, lets say that. Anyways, besides the lack of sleep and the massive amount of homework i had and still have, this week has actually been pretty good.

Some things that make me really happy:

{+} my new favorite album, the new This Century album just came out. I know i sound like the typical boy-band obsessed girl, and i guess i kinda am, but whatever. I love their music.
{+} i found black converse hightops on ebay for cheap and i've been wanting them forever. They might just have to be bought.
{+} i wrote a song yesterday in like ten minutes and i actually really like it. Not that anyone else will necessarily, but ya know.
{+} I'm kinda excited for Easter.
{+} it's sunny. It wasn't supposed to be, but it is. I love it when that happens.
{+} this is going to sound stupid, but i saw a cloud shaped like a squirrel today, and it sort of made me happy. Apparently I'm easily pleased.
{+} i rediscovered one of my favorite songs...how's it gonna be by Third Eye Blind. It makes me wanna cry and smile at the same time. If that doesn't sound too corny.
{+} i think i'm gonna try and fly a kite tomorrow. Just a thought.
{+} little conversations and passing glances and so many smiles. They make my day :) {+} It's break!! woot!
Anyways thats all i got for now, i'm sorry it's a pretty boring post. Have a happy Easter if you celebrate it, if not, have a good Sunday :)
xx

{emma}

Maybe amazing is your middle name.

So i know this isn't technically a full out post, but. I have no time thanks to the mountain of homework i have, and i had to post one thing. Basically this is the epitome of awesomeness. And i really mean it when i say, I'm in freaking love.




And for some reason, i want to go jump in a lake right now while listening to this song. And i don't quite know why.
Anyway. I promise i'll post more soon, i actually have interesting things to talk about! ...interesting by my blogging standards at least.
until soon :)

xx
{emma}

I don't want to dance alone.

It's weird how a day can be completely reversed by one little thing. Or two, actually.

So, yesterday was a bad day. I didn't get any sleep and i woke up feeling like i could go back to bed and sleep for another trillion years. And, i got home reeaally late the night before and had no ambition or energy, or brain capacity to do my homework so i had a ton of stuff that i didn't do. So i was in the worst mood ever to begin with, then I got to school and realized that i had a huge english assignment due that i thought was due in a few weeks, and I hadn't even opened the book. I wanted to cry. Plus it was monday, which is the worst day ever.

Anyways, so after a terrible morning there was a short, brief conversation in passing that put a smile on my face. Then as i was driving home i saw a guy standing outside at a gas station. I'm guessing he worked there cause he had a uniform thing on, and i think he was on break, and what was he doing? Flying a kite. Not sitting back behind the building smoking a cigarette or anything, no. He was flying a kite. I loved that. And, it sorta made my day.

Anyways, today was better, had star testing which wasn't awesome but classes were shorter so it was okay.

And it's slightly sunny, which is awesome :)

Until later,

xx

{emma}

All the facts are pretend anyway.

So i have been waiting aimlessly for something worth blogging about, and finally something has come my way.

I saw Ani Difranco in concert last night.

I can honestly say it was one of the most amazing concerts i've seen. Not that i'm exactly the hardcore concert guru, but still. I swear, she is one of the most incredible musicians out there. She's like poetry on a guitar, and her voice. I can't even get over it. I cried on the last song. That's how amazing it was. And i'm not someone who tears up at every miniscule thing..this was truly beautiful. I know it's cliche, yes, but she inspires me. Really. As soon as i got home i wanted to bang on my guitar and write a million songs with whispered words that mean something to the world. There was the issue of the fact that it was nearly midnight, and the rest of my family was lost in dreams. I'll just have to get to work on those millions now.

In other news, i went to Disneyland last week with my school orchestra. I actually had a fever the whole time, but it was still awesome. Some parts a little fuzzy, but still. I had great friends to take amazing care of me. And. I bought and drank a years worth of orange juice in approximately three days, which kept me going. We had to march in the parade, it was about a trillion degrees outside. We wore wool hats. Not exactly the most practical choice. But it was still kinda cool, having all the little kids watch and listen to us as we passed by. We had to go backstage to wait, and it was weird because it was really the backstage of disneyland and it was so...normal. Picture a cleaner street of San Francisco thats totally deserted. With people dressed up as big furry chipmunks and mice and princesses driving around in golf carts. It was kind of a rude awakening, because Disneyland is so, i dunno, pristine. So perfect. Then backstage, all the magic is gone, snaps back to reality. It was strange. Also...i have come to a conclusion. I'm really into Chip and Dale. Like the chipmunks? They're pretty cool. So anyways, that was really fun. And a thousand times better than being in school. :)

Aand, i am so glad its friday. The weekend awaits. Wooot! Time to party it up, hah. Or...in my case...sleep. Such a social butterfly, i know, i try. But really. I'm not planning on being antisocial all weekend, i promise.

Anyway, i am now going to go start number one of the million songs i got going inspired by the wonderous Ani Difranco. Enjoy the weekend, listen to some good music, and hopefully enjoy the sunshine. Or the rain. Either works for me.

Later.

xx

{emma}