i'm your forgotten juliet.

your rain is my tears. there's a lot isn't there?

well hello. it's been so long since i've written...its strange. so much has happened, but at the same time nearly nothing has happened, so i won't bother to write it all down.

it's been raining alot lately, which i love. there's something about the rain that's so sad, yet it makes me feel just really there. just here on the earth, a tiny little speck in the universe. i don't know, maybe too deep. but it definitely makes me feel.

and tomorrow's halloween. i'm sort of excited, although for once the rain might be a bad thing. the problem is that there's school the next day, which is kinda messed up to me. but anyway. it'll still be fun.

saw paranormal activity 2 yesterday. its weird because its the kind of movie, that yea, made me jump a few times, even when i knew it was coming, but it wasnt that scary in the theaters. but then after, that when it got sort of scary. and plus with the addition of a rainy night before halloween, well. also, i've never realized before how much i hate it when people laugh at parts in movies that are so obviously not funny. which a few of my friends were. though what can i do, it was still fun. i wouldn't say the movie was good, exactly, but i dunno. it actually scared me in parts.

and lastly. i've had alot of time to think. and really, nothing has changed. so i've basically resorted to living for the tiny moments that make me smile so big, and writing alot of songs. and i can't wait for the holidays. it all starts now.

until soon,

xx

{emma}

Tell me when you hear my heart stop.

well, tomorrow is my birthday. i'm excited, but i'm not sure if i want to grow older. time goes too fast already, you know? and i've been purposely neglecting my blog because, well. just a small event, not even an event really. a bit of someone else's event, that has sort of torn me. i feel pathetic that something is hurting me like it is. it shouldnt, i get that. but...it does. and i hate that i care this much. and i also am aware that if i let myself, i would be throwing everything in my brain right onto the pages of this blog every day trying to get it out of my head. so hence, the neglection. its just like everyday is a reminder, i can't even get away. and my brain wont let it go. i wont let it go. but then something happens, and all the sudden theres this tiny, tiny flicker of hope in my head. so i apologize. and yes, i feel incredibly lame. so i need no reminders, thanks.

on a different note, today is my mum's birthday. i think it's incredibly cool that i was born a day after her.

also, i have found new music! well, ok. not really new, exactly. just rediscovered awesome music ;) so if you have time to spare, look up the cranberries and the pixies. best song for the cranberries is zombie, and where is my mind is totally awesome from the pixies. also, i have rediscovered the white stripes, which always makes me happy. i've basically grown up with them, sometimes unconciously, but i absolutely adore them. definitely on the list of concerts i have to see in my lifetime.

anyway, i'm sorry for the smallness, the melacholiness. i'll be better next time, promise. sometimes you just need a bit of time to wake.

xx

{emma}